Just to let you know....

So I wasn't going to post anything on this but I have decided to, so I don't have to tell it over and over again to everyone....
This last week I was having complications with my pregnancy and after being sick, bleeding and a trip to the ER and then to my Doctor we are pretty much at the conclusion that this is a Miscarriage. I was under the impression that I was about 13 weeks along with this pregnancy and thought I was in the clear as far as being out of the first trimester with all the risks of miscarriage that come in that trimester. We found out that this pregnancy pretty much stopped around 6-8 weeks and I had just started to miscarry it in this last week. I will go to the Doctor one more time on Monday to "double Check" to make sure it is what it is before heading out of town. The reason I am posting it here is so that I don't have to tell the whole story over and over. I don't mind people asking how I am or even if I am okay etc. but I will put my feelings here for those who are not close to me and just to let every one know that I am okay.

Since I was under the impression that I was 13 going on 14 weeks I was anxious to find out what we were going to have (girl or boy) in just a couple more weeks and since this was a planned and welcomed pregnancy, yes I am upset that it is no longer. Am I devastated and an emotional wreck? NO. To tell you all the truth, I had a feeling something was wrong with this pregnancy from the beginning, but how do you tell a Doctor "I have a feeling something is wrong" with out them rolling their eyes. I was just not "feeling" pregnant much of the time and thought that it was weird, but thought "every pregnancy is different". So when the tests/ultrasounds etc. proved that it is most likely miscarrying this pregnancy I had that "I thought so" in the back of my mind come out. Yes I still cried and yes it was hard to accept at first but honestly there is nothing I can do about it, so why get too upset when I can't do anything to stop it from happening. Why make too big of a fuss and dwell on it when it obviously wasn't my fault and that I did nothing wrong and it obviously wasn't meant to be at this time. Granted, I did want another child and the timing to me seemed perfect, but I have two beautiful, healthy children to be grateful for. I am glad to know that I can have children and carry them to term, but some times these things just happen and there is nothing that we or any one can do about it.

I have amazing friends and family to be grateful for, for their love, concern, and service to me. I am so blessed and that is what I am choosing to dwell on in this hard, but small trial. Here is a future thanks to all you who share your love and concern for me. It always feels good to know that people are thinking of me and/or have even gone through some thing similar. Thank you for caring!

Sorry if this was a depressing post, I was trying hard not to make it that.

On a better note.... to end this post happier..... Cory is DONE with finals! Yay! and we are going to be with family for this long Holiday break he has, another YAY! I can't wait to be with them, they can always cheer me up!
Let me just tell you all what an amazing guy my hubby is. We went to the ER the night before his one BIG final and with out a word of worry or concern for his test he brought his stuff to study took me to the ER and sat by my side the whole time. He would study, then chat with me, then watch TV with me, then study some more keeping my mind off what we both thought this was going to turn out to be. Never complaining that he was never going to get all the studying in he needed to. We were in the ER for 5 1/2 hours, yeah, it was a long time! Any way we got home and he stayed up all night studying, with out complaining or even one minute of sleep because he spent most of those 5 hours at the hospital keeping me company and happy. I hope Heavenly Father blesses him with a good score on this test for being a wonderful husband! I love my Family so much and have so much to be grateful for especially this wonderful man in my life!

Christmas Came early!

Much has happened since our Thanksgiving weekend. We were debating setting up the Christmas tree and all the decorations since we will be gone for much of December. We knew we were going to do our own little Christmas here before we left so I decided to get in the holiday spirit and set everything up any way. The kids had fun getting out the decorations and helping decorate the tree. I'm glad we decided to do it this year, it was fun watching them enjoy the spirit of Christmas! I over heard E the other day talking to J in the kitchen and I heard this little conversation between the two of them....
E: J, this is Joseph and this is Mary and do you know who the baby is?
J: Baby?
E: That is baby Jesus
J: JESUS!
E: Yep, this is when Jesus was born
J: Jesus born

Our Charlie Brown tree given to us (thanks Ereksons!)
It may be small and a little ghetto but we like it!

I love this quilted Nativity given to us by Grandma Celia (C's Mom)
The kids love to help set it up and I don't mind letting them since it is not breakable!
I set it up on our Chalk wall and quoted Christmas songs all around it. It looks cute!

This is E's Chalk drawing of the Nativity Scene. I think she did a really good job!

Decorating the tree together
I buy the "shatter resistant" Christmas balls, in other words they are plastic! This way the tree looks pretty and the kids can help with out me worrying so much about broken glass. AND they look just as nice!
He would concentrate so hard and when he finally got it on the tree he'd cheer, it was so cute!

The conversation went on for a while between E and J. It was mostly E talking about the Nativity Scene and Jesus' birth and J just repeated much of what she would say but it was so cute it melted my heart. I'm proud to know that my Children, so young, know that Christmas is about Jesus' birth and not just Santa. In fact some times I think they forget there is this whole "Santa" thing and that is okay with me! I think it is because I don't play up the whole Santa thing that much. I know some people say there is no "magic" to Christmas with out Santa but I say that there is so much more magic when it is NOT ONLY about Santa. That is just me and my opinion though. I love Christmas for what it is, a time for family, a time to give and to love and serve others as Jesus did. I'm so glad my kids are learning this young.

Since we will be at my Folks for Christmas this year and we are flying we decided we would do our own Christmas here for the kids so we didn't have to haul all their gifts out there only to have to take them back here again. With the tree lit up and the house decorated and the presents wrapped and under the tree we couldn't wait any longer and decided to do our Christmas this last weekend. The kids loved all their gifts! E's big gift was a doll house which she has come to love to play with. J's big present was a Train/Car Mat with Choo Choo trains and cars, he LOVES it! And I love that I can just roll it up and put it away, nice. I'm glad we didn't go all out spending lots of money on the kids because I think they like these simple inexpensive gifts better than they would like those pricey ones. Now they have over a week to play with and enjoy their gifts before we take off to Grandmas house.


Yay for an early Christmas! We had fun watching the kids get excited with each gift they opened. We can't wait to do it again on the 25th! (but they won't be getting much as we won't have much room in bags to bring them back)