Just to let you know....

So I wasn't going to post anything on this but I have decided to, so I don't have to tell it over and over again to everyone....
This last week I was having complications with my pregnancy and after being sick, bleeding and a trip to the ER and then to my Doctor we are pretty much at the conclusion that this is a Miscarriage. I was under the impression that I was about 13 weeks along with this pregnancy and thought I was in the clear as far as being out of the first trimester with all the risks of miscarriage that come in that trimester. We found out that this pregnancy pretty much stopped around 6-8 weeks and I had just started to miscarry it in this last week. I will go to the Doctor one more time on Monday to "double Check" to make sure it is what it is before heading out of town. The reason I am posting it here is so that I don't have to tell the whole story over and over. I don't mind people asking how I am or even if I am okay etc. but I will put my feelings here for those who are not close to me and just to let every one know that I am okay.

Since I was under the impression that I was 13 going on 14 weeks I was anxious to find out what we were going to have (girl or boy) in just a couple more weeks and since this was a planned and welcomed pregnancy, yes I am upset that it is no longer. Am I devastated and an emotional wreck? NO. To tell you all the truth, I had a feeling something was wrong with this pregnancy from the beginning, but how do you tell a Doctor "I have a feeling something is wrong" with out them rolling their eyes. I was just not "feeling" pregnant much of the time and thought that it was weird, but thought "every pregnancy is different". So when the tests/ultrasounds etc. proved that it is most likely miscarrying this pregnancy I had that "I thought so" in the back of my mind come out. Yes I still cried and yes it was hard to accept at first but honestly there is nothing I can do about it, so why get too upset when I can't do anything to stop it from happening. Why make too big of a fuss and dwell on it when it obviously wasn't my fault and that I did nothing wrong and it obviously wasn't meant to be at this time. Granted, I did want another child and the timing to me seemed perfect, but I have two beautiful, healthy children to be grateful for. I am glad to know that I can have children and carry them to term, but some times these things just happen and there is nothing that we or any one can do about it.

I have amazing friends and family to be grateful for, for their love, concern, and service to me. I am so blessed and that is what I am choosing to dwell on in this hard, but small trial. Here is a future thanks to all you who share your love and concern for me. It always feels good to know that people are thinking of me and/or have even gone through some thing similar. Thank you for caring!

Sorry if this was a depressing post, I was trying hard not to make it that.

On a better note.... to end this post happier..... Cory is DONE with finals! Yay! and we are going to be with family for this long Holiday break he has, another YAY! I can't wait to be with them, they can always cheer me up!
Let me just tell you all what an amazing guy my hubby is. We went to the ER the night before his one BIG final and with out a word of worry or concern for his test he brought his stuff to study took me to the ER and sat by my side the whole time. He would study, then chat with me, then watch TV with me, then study some more keeping my mind off what we both thought this was going to turn out to be. Never complaining that he was never going to get all the studying in he needed to. We were in the ER for 5 1/2 hours, yeah, it was a long time! Any way we got home and he stayed up all night studying, with out complaining or even one minute of sleep because he spent most of those 5 hours at the hospital keeping me company and happy. I hope Heavenly Father blesses him with a good score on this test for being a wonderful husband! I love my Family so much and have so much to be grateful for especially this wonderful man in my life!